thoughts on christmas

First of all, christmas didn't suck, it was very nice, only one thing could have made it any better.

My second thought of christmas is that I'm pretty damn spoiled, I feel like I haven't gotten much, but I have a ton of stuff, mainly my new expensive "CREATIVE FATAL1TY HKII" headset for about a 100 bucks and an electric razor which I used to slice my face. Blood everywhere on christmas day, finally I figured it out though.

I'm not yet sure what I'm doing for new years, but I'm sure I'll do something. If the year "2009" means 2oo9 years since jesus was born and jesus' birthday is on christmas, why don't we celebrate new years on christmas? this kind of shit keeps me up at night. (not really)

I suppose I should mention nicole in this post, but I don't know quite how. lol

still pretty damn awesome. L.H.

short update for those who aren't up to date.

many mixed feelings, mental breakdown, midnight walk

christmas this year is gonna suck.

christmas.

Finally, the christmas spirit envelops even me, I've done all my work for this year.

It's more or less christmas break already, just have to tie up some loose ends, if you know what I mean...

didn't bother showing up for school today, no one cared, only one person can work on the movie at any given time anyways.

also, we are doing a movie, or, I suppose we were. I'm somewhat pleased with the end results, although I could have made it better if everyone would have listened to me the whole time.

http://www.megavideo.com/?v=7WO1PSCN

merry christmas everyone, and a happy new year, especially you nicole.

things will be looking up in the future.

It's been a long time now since i last posted anything. I'll probably be posting even less in the future due to not having much to say, I guess I can try, but at the same time I try not to make little pointless posts containing no information. like this one.

I have my christmas break in one week, it's going to be great; christmas, new year and then, the last week of january.

Seeing ghosts.

I haven't slept for some time and I'm starting to speak in metaphores. when someone owes you money and then dies, is it OK to demand the money from what's left behind? and how much money does it have to be in order for me to be allowed to make a big deal out of it? I had this friend, a good friend, or atleast, so I thought, but now she's dead. she owes me money, should i let her rest in peace or demand what's mine?

my friend is not really dead, she's just dead to me, and not even in that bad of a way, i just think my life would be better without her existence so i'm denying it, for now.

three more things, school related;

-I got my physics test back, the best guy in our class scored 12, untill i did the test and scored 16.

-the count actually noticed that i cut my hair, i was genuinely surprised, but i'm glad that someone did, he is a good friend after all, even though he's whipped.

-Big IT test tomorrow, after that there are no more lessons before the last week of january.

looking back at this post i don't know why i'm asking so many questions, do i expect an answer? i guess getting some feedback from any of you readers would be nice, iether as a comment or a PM.

am i whipped?

I'm sorry.

first of all, let me say I'm sorry, I know I'm not supposed to make a post just for the sake of making a post, but i feel it's been too long, so here goes nothing.

let's see, i got a new hair cut, but i'm not gonna upload any pictures, so if anyone wants to see you'll have to ask me in private, i also got new shoes, which sucks, my old ones were awesome, but eventually they tore apart, all good things must come to an end.

i know i can't keep making posts repeating how excited i am about going to NY but that's really the only thing on my mind nowadays.

also, no fap week, this week, just felt like sharing that.

Life is great

i bought my ticket today, now there's no turning back, life is great.

score!

That's it, I'm going to New York, this is great. I can't describe how exited I am using words, I feel sick and my life is sort of a mess, but i'm going to see my girlfriend, and i'm completely happy, couldn't be happier. that is all, sorry for the brief update, but i think this covers what's essential.

Plot twist

On my Romeo and Juliette assignment I got an A, no surprise there. yet I feel a need to brag, my modesty seems to be even lower than usual, and that's saying a lot. However when I got my måth test I was quite surprised with the results. I had the best score in my class but i had still failed the test. this sucks, I thought I had done well, I'm gonna have to redo it. I'm gonna have to work "harder" (at all) if i want to pass. i guess there's a first time for everything.

today however I wasn't in school, I'm sick. I'm fearing the worst, I fear I might have the flu of swines, sadly. I'm gonna have so much catching up to do when this is all over. This seems to have been quite a little pointless post, but then again, aren't they all? and people do still read them, i hope you had fun reading this.

Inferior

I don't know how to open this, so I just will. seemingly I perform better in school when I'm tired maybe it's because I try harder or maybe because I'm more relaxed.

nothing interesting has happened to me recently. but things have been going on in my life, Nicole (my girlfriend) have been fighting with elin (my good friend who is in love with me). finally however they seem to have a truce, i'm hoping this is the end of it, it's not too much fun being stuck in the middle, however, eiln seems to be taking all of this pretty badly, she told me to block her for a week straight, no contact at all, poor thing.

in other news, apperantly nicole got on her wii fit the other day, and now she keeps bitching about her weight, it's a good thing that she cares about her health, but her weight is irrelevant. i'm sorry to put things that bluntly nicole, i love you E>. also, you look great.

fighting to keep my eyes open

It's been a while since i posted last. Not much of importance have happened, exept for me getting my computer back, oh the joy! but i'm getting ahead of myself.

yesterday i had a dentist's appointment and i was going to go to school and i had it all planned out, i stayed up talking to nicole to about 5 am, which isn't too bad. 5 am isn't really more than usual, and i'd stay up later if i could. However, the next morning when my alarm rang i could not bring myself to getting out of bed, i just lay there untill 8 pm, sleeping like a log.

afterwards I felt bad about that, but really I'd do it again, so after that to even things out i stayed up all night, and today at school i was messed up tired, but i still managed to learn how to convert IP-adresses to binary code in order to calculate the custom netmask and tell apart the sub-networks from the clients. needless to say i finished my assignment first and got to leave half an hour early.

after that i went to the movies with some friends, and when elin heard that she bought the seat next to me. we saw a christmas carol by Tim Burton and it was great, worth every cent, even though it was expensive as it was in 3D.

I should have gone to bed 24 hours ago and i'm still going, only reason i'm online now is that i was hoping nicole would be online, i guess i'll talk to her later.

Nicole, i miss you, i always do.

Romance and destruction

God damn it, i'm getting awfully sick of my computer breaking down, this must be the fourth time since this summer. so last night i had slept all day, and i was planning on staying up all night, hopefully getting to talk to nicole and all of a sudden i hear that ticking noice, i knew in an instant what it ment, it haunts me in my sleep. That ticking noice means i need a new hard drive. not much left to do, i went to bed again, i slept about 20 hours in a 24 hour perimiter.

today i went to the tech support the first thing i did, turned in and got this temporary computer meanwhile, i guess i should count myself lucky but right now i don't feel very lucky. after that we had swedish class where we got to watch romeo and juliette, ever since i've been feeling a bit poetic. I was the only one who cared for it at all, the rest of my class thought it was garbage, iether i'm madly in love or they have no clue what a good story is or i'm madly in love. maybe both...

to sum things up; there's but one thought on my mind right now, i miss you nicole, wish you were here.

Tired

I'm tired right now, i stayed up until 5 am talking to nicole, and looking back that was totally worth

it. exept i had to get up at 8 am and go to school, that was painful and if i hadn't been too tired to react i'd probably have been upset, when a friend told me we didn't have class untill 12:30 pm and i could have slept for four more hours.

so i did the only thing i could do, i pulled three chairs together and made my jacket into a ball and slept for two hours, it was cold and hard and people were staring, but it felt so good and i was really relaxed after that. i felt like i was ready for anything.

when class did start, however, we did not have any assignment, today all we did was watch a movie, pirates of the silicon valley, great movie, but i'd seen it already, and i got kinda sleepy sitting in the dark and doing nothing.

all in all i think it was a fun day in school and i'm really ready for a weekend now, i'm gonna try to get some sleep, but hopefully i can stay up with nicole instead

the one and only: Ludvig

back again

Greetings internet! I'm back, I'm starting to get a bit pissed off at my math teacher, I was gonna get my test results about 4 weeks ago, and i still haven't gotten them... I guess I can't complain, but really, it's quite tedious.

Yesterday i hung out with elin all day after school, that was fun, i tried to teach her to play B&W. That didn't go so well, it was kinda funny to watch. but after a while she got the hang of it. after that we ate hamburgers and for some reason she had to watch grey's anatomy, all in all it was a fun day.

today i had two IT tests, i scored 81% and 83% i think i'm about best in my class, so i feel a bit good about that and i had to brag just a little.

i guess that's about it, not that much going on at the moment.

The one and only: Ludvig

Fail

So, here's the deal: last night i was gonna stay up all night in order to be tired enough to go to be early tonight. however about 10 am i was feeling awfully tired so i just took a little nap and set my alarm for 1 pm. obviously i couldn't wake up at one pm after three hours of sleep so the alarm did nothing and i slept for another 6 hours. i'm making this post here at 2:13 am and i'm not that tired, i'm gonna go to bed soon anyways and hope for the best. tomorrow i have math, which i have mixed feelings about: on one hand i'm gonna be really tired and hardly be able to do any math, on the other hand i'm gonna get my test back and i bet my ass i'll get the best grade in my class.

only thing keeping me up now is nicole, she wants to talk to me, and truthfully i don't mind, i think talking to her is the most fun i have nowadays...

that sounded awfully strange, but i am strange in many ways, not much more to say, dispite all that fail i still had a good day, i'm going to sleep with a smile on my face, also i ate kebab

the one and only: Ludvig

First post

Hello everyone! I have never done this before so I'm not quite sure what I'm supposed say. I didn't get much sleep last night, because my cousin slept in my spare bed and kept me up the whole time. I’ve been kind of sleepy the whole day, sort of just drifting along.

I ate dinner with my dad. It was kind of awkward but all in all fun. I wish it had been a bit better cooked though, kind of hungry still.

After that I watched some movies with Nicole, Nightmare before Christmas and Coraline. Coraline was great, and I had a lot of fun watching it with her.

My cousin kind of left my room in a mess and I guess I'm gonna have to clean it up soon. I’m not looking forward to that, and my carpet still has a huge pile of cement dust. I'm not cleaning that up, that's a matter of principle.

I'm not making too much sense I assume, but if you're still reading I guess I've done my part. I'm gonna go get something to eat now, as I'm still kind of hungry.

also, nicole, i love you

The one and only: Ludvig

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