Seeing ghosts.

I haven't slept for some time and I'm starting to speak in metaphores. when someone owes you money and then dies, is it OK to demand the money from what's left behind? and how much money does it have to be in order for me to be allowed to make a big deal out of it? I had this friend, a good friend, or atleast, so I thought, but now she's dead. she owes me money, should i let her rest in peace or demand what's mine?

my friend is not really dead, she's just dead to me, and not even in that bad of a way, i just think my life would be better without her existence so i'm denying it, for now.

three more things, school related;

-I got my physics test back, the best guy in our class scored 12, untill i did the test and scored 16.

-the count actually noticed that i cut my hair, i was genuinely surprised, but i'm glad that someone did, he is a good friend after all, even though he's whipped.

-Big IT test tomorrow, after that there are no more lessons before the last week of january.

looking back at this post i don't know why i'm asking so many questions, do i expect an answer? i guess getting some feedback from any of you readers would be nice, iether as a comment or a PM.

am i whipped?